What does it mean to wait? I would like to think that waiting is somewhat appropriate for when it does not take you through a series of delay.

I remember vividly going through an experience where my expectations to receive something I had been waiting for took me almost ever longer then I had anticipated. For some reason this process of waiting taught me about my decision to see what this means for me, mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

The journey that led me to this season of my waiting proved futile, It was everything that I thought was not for me and everything that I hoped would not happen. It has taken a good few years to arrive to where I am today, the seasons that can somehow either make or break you? The waiting if anything taught me a lot about myself I didn’t know?

On this particular day in spring of 2021 I remember walking into my work room, with heavy heart and shoulders hanging as if it was the end of my life, only to realise in the spur of the moment, that I was only meant to tell God about what I had thought was my predicament ?

As if to hear a still small voice say… I am Here, you can always tell me anything ?with puffy eyes and heavy heart, all I could gasp was “how much longer Lord?” As I reflect this was approximately nine years on, yet some of us be waiting just twenty-four hours or three weeks, Child…..give it a few years and tell me if your patience has been tested ultimately?

The waiting if anything, has taught me patience, endurance, the need to be resilient in my faith and my part of intentionality to seek God first over anything or everything that concerns not just my personal life, but that of mothering, marriage and being a wife.

The zeal I had cultivated with the ability and strength to be joyful even if it meant doing what others shun away from- it has been a humbling season of gleaning for me. A life of waiting has taught me to appreciate the journey. Yes! This is hard enough when you cannot perceive the outcome? How can you wait with zeal when things you thought would come to fruition instead are delayed because the timing for you is not right?

I am reminded of Lamentations 3:25 “The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks Him”. There are two prepositions in this context, to wait on God and to seek Him, how many of us can attest to doing both of these requirements in our waiting ? They correlate, one can’t work without the other. I pray that in your waiting you will choose to seek after God.

I learnt everything of my faith journey the hard way, without friends, peers and definitely without family. The people I thought were part of my journey were somehow distanced from me, this was a way to teach me that my reliance is to be foremost on God and not on people or those around me. It can be a lonely road when the season of waiting comes in full throttle, you will very much experience the highs and ever lows of life when God takes you on a journey to learn more about waiting and trusting Him in your wait.

I would like to share a few things that waiting has taught me;

1. Waiting cultivates humility

2. Waiting teaches you more about your need of God.

3. Waiting is meant to prepare you.

4. Waiting teaches you not to force what’s not meant for you yet.

5. Waiting is a process you need to adhere to before God can use you for what He has purposed you for.

These were some of the things I took away from my season and experiences of waiting, I hope this will be able to help someone who might be in their waiting season. God is for you and with you even in your waiting.

I would like to think that somehow being an only child taught me a lot of independence but if anything waiting taught me to replace my independence with my dependence on God. The process that led me through my season of waiting was difficult but it was necessary. The moments where I had assumed God was done with me, was actually the opposite I realised God was preparing me, and if I had not been submissive to his will then when the waiting came into effect; it would not end well for me.

So here I am to share about what waiting has taught me and how through my season and experiences of waiting God was indeed with me along the journey and the process that led me through it eventually progressed me.

Love & Light!

C x